daydreamer425

hey hey hey, i love all of you!!! i sprained my ankle and wont be seeing you cool cats as soon as i wanted. however sissy, i will call you later cause i want to visit you before i leave and i love all yall ttyl!!!!!!!

i hate having these late watches. i get 3 hours of sleep. im so fucking tired and i can't fall asleep because i have no one here as a look out. hopefully my phone will be back on tomorrow. i need money!!! im so fucking broke.

"I'm shipping out to Iraq in the morning. Want to come back to my place and help me grease my rifle?"

"Do you like patriotic songs? Come out to my car with me and I'll sing you my favorite. It's called 'Yank My Doodle, It's a Dandy.' "

All we are is sailors and all we do is drink. hooyah weekends! hooyah beer! hooyah friends and hooyah bars. Well this weekend is a little blurry. i had a great time though.
News in my life: I met a boy, but i am not sure if i really want to be in a relationship right now. we got orders to go to the same ship and i mean i like him but i don't know. we see each other a lot and i need my space!!!! who knows what will happen. hes so hot and he has a nice body and he's special warefare. EOD! (same training as seals).

My roommate is getting on my nerves. she's one of those girls whos little and sickly. she lies all the fucking time and she doesnt do shit but lay in bed all day. she has no friends and never goes out. she never wants to do anything like work out with out duty section. but if you ask her, she will tell you she can do 14 one handed pull ups. shes like 4'10 125 lbs. we ran up 3 flight of stairs one day to get to our room and the bitch was out of breath. my other roommate is so loud. her music is always on and its that r and b shit i HATE!!!!!! i need my music from home. i just wish my mother would send it to me! My other roommate is alright. i can relate to her the most even though she likes my other roommates music.
It's monday morning and i need a beer, although after this past weekend i may slow down on the drinking, just for 1 week :D

well, here i am all by myself because the senior chiefs and warrant officer went to lunch as did the guy i work with. school isnt too bad. i got put on hold for 3 weeks because i am waiting for people to graduate because we have too many students and not enough teachers. i go back to school on the 6th of june. so im on hold and instead of letting me go back to my barracks all day i work at school. they voluntold me to be a secretary. but i dont mind cause now i dont have to stand watch or clean all day. i sit here and play on the comp and answer the phone if someone calls. oh yea i also shred paper. how fun right? the weather has been nothing but rain. its not that bad here, but i wish i had more time for me. hoorah weekends! i hate duty though, oh and i get yelled at alot here. we laugh about it all the time its for stupid shit too like hands in pocket, phone ringing at a certian time, like when im on watch! oh well im glad i joined the navy, even though the rules are stupid!

IM FREE!!!! IM FREE!!! I FUCKING MADE IT! HOORAY!!

well good-bye to all of you. i love you all and i'll miss yins! :)
you guys better write and visit me!!!!
I love you!

well im bored, waiting for those people to stop smoking. sometimes i wonder if i ever seen my mom sober. shes always high, ahhhh!!! it bugs me. im tired of smelling that shit, all my clothes smell like it, the walls are really dirty from it and god damn why doesnt she clean????
is this wierd? i think my wisdom tooth is growing in, aint i alittle too old, i though they were already in there, good news, if it is coming in, its coming in perfect.
my mum gave me her cold, blah. oh well they're done,
SHOPPING!!!!

well my recruiter lied to me! i know big suprise right? anywho im stuck in pgh for 1 more week. i leave the 13th not the 6th. eh, im bummed but oh well more time to drink
! Hoo-rah!!!

its been like 2 days without alcohol, im dying for a beer. boot camp is gonna kill me. oh well, random thoughts...
Downloading movies rocks!!!-my newest hobby
I was grossed out when mum came home with rocco and they started talking about sex, ewwww!!! although he is a nice guy and i like him. i just hope he doesnt break her heart.
Working out tomorrow is gonna suck. i feel like an outsider in that gym. but it motivates me to keep up and show them im not a pussy. plus its only for 1 hour and they have like 7 tv's. i'll prolly bring my cd walkman with me this time.
I been reading those religious books again, got me thinking about the end of the world and shit. left behind series-really good!!!
i think im hungry?

— A —
Cmdr. Joseph Acevedo, 46, Bronx, N.Y., April 13, 2003, Bahrain
Lt. Thomas Mullen Adams, 27, La Mesa, Calif., March 22, 2003, Over International Waters
Petty Officer 2nd Class Matthew G. Axelson, 29, Cupertino, Calif, Remains located July 10, 2005, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 2nd Class Michael C. Anderson, 36, of Daytona, Fla., May 2, 2004, Iraq
— B —
Petty Officer 1st Class Howard E. Babcock IV, 33, Houston, Texas, Oct. 13, 2005, Bahrain
Petty Officer 2nd Class Cesar O. Baez, 37, Pomona, Calif., June 15, 2005, Iraq
Chief Joel Egan Baldwin, 37, Arlington, Va., Dec. 21, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer Third Class Doyle W. Bollinger, Jr., 21, Poteau, Okla., June 6, 2003, Iraq
Seaman Pablito Pena Briones, Jr., 22, Anaheim, Calf., Dec. 28, 2004, Iraq
— C, D —
Fireman Jakia S. Cannon, Baltimore, Md., Oct. 25, 2003, Persian Gulf
Petty Officer 3rd Class David A. Cedergren, South St. Paul, Minn., Sept. 11, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer 1st Class Regina R. Clark, 43, Centralia, Wash., June 23, 2005, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class Christopher M. Dickerson, 33, Eastman, Ga, April 30, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer 2nd Class Trace W. Dossett, 37, of Orlando, Fla., May 2, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer 2nd Class Jason B. Dwelley, 31, Apopka, Fla., April 30, 2004, Iraq
— E, F —
Petty Officer 2nd Class Alan M. Cundanga Espiritu, 28, Oxnard, Calif., Nov. 1, 2005, Iraq
— G —
Petty Officer 3rd Class Ronald A. Ginther, 37, of Auburndale, Fla., May 2, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer 2nd Class Michael J. Gray, 32, Richmond, Va., March 5, 2004, Kuwait
— H, J, K —
Petty Officer 3rd Class John D. House, 28, Ventura, Calif., Jan. 26, 2005, Iraq
Lt. Cmdr. Edward E. Jack, 51, Detroit, Mich., Jan. 29, 2005, aboard USS Bonhomme Richard
Petty Officer 2nd Class Robert B. Jenkins, 35, of Stuart, Fla., May 2, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class Michael Vann Johnson, Jr., 25, Little Rock, Ark., March 25, 2003, Iraq
Lt. Kylan A. Jones-Huffman, 31, Aptos, Calif., Aug. 21, 2003, Iraq
Petty Officer 2nd Class Brian K. Joplin, 32, Hugo, Okla., Oct. 4, 2005, Central Arabian Gulf
Hospitalman Aaron A. Kent, 28, Portland, Oregon, April 23, 2005, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class Eric L. Knott, 21, Grand Island, Neb., Sept. 4, 2004
— M, P —
Seaman Apprentice Robert D. Macrum, 22, Sugarland, Texas, Persian Gulf (lost at sea, Sept. 12, 2005)
Seaman Robert N. Martens, 20, Queen Creek, Ariz., Sept. 6, 2005, Iraq
Petty Officer 2nd Class Scott R. Mchugh, 33, of Boca Raton Fla., May 2, 2004, Iraq
Seaman Joshua D. McIntosh, 22, Kingman, Ariz., June 26 , 2003, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class Fernando A. Mendez-Aceves, 27, Mexico City, Mexico, April 6, 2004, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class David J. Moreno, 26, Gering, Neb., July 17, 2003, Iraq
Petty Officer 1st Class Michael J. Pernaselli, 27, of Monroe, N.Y, April 24, 2004, Northern Persian Gulf
— S —
Petty Officer 3rd Class David Sisung, 21, Phoenix, Ariz., June 6, 2003, Persian Gulf
— T —
Lt. Cmdr Keith E. Taylor, 47, Irvine, Calif., Jan. 29, 2005, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class Christopher W. Thompson, 25, N. Wilkesboro, N.C., Oct. 21, 2005, Iraq
— W —
Petty Officer 2nd Class Christopher E. Watts, 28, Knoxville, Tenn., April 24, 2004, Northern Persian Gulf
Lt. Nathan D. White, 30, Mesa, Ariz., April 2, 2003, Iraq
Petty Officer 3rd Class Jeffery L. Wiener, 32, Louisville, Ky., May 7, 2005
Petty Officer 3rd Class Julian A. Woods, Jacksonville, Fla., Nov. 10, 2004, Iraq
— Y —
Petty Officer 3rd Class Travis L. Youngblood, 26, Surrency, Ga., July 21, 2005, Iraq
Petty Officer 2nd Class Matthew G. Axelson, 29, Cupertino, Calif., July 10, 2005, Afghanistan
Chief Petty Officer Matthew J. Bourgeois, 35, Tallahassee, Fla., Mar. 27, 2002, Afghanistan
Machinist’s Mate Fireman Apprentice Bryant L. Davis, 20, Chicago, Ill., Nov. 7, 2001, Arabian Sea
Petty Officer 2nd Class Danny P. Dietz, 25, Littleton, Colo., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Chief Petty Officer Jacques J. Fontan, 36, New Orleans, La., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Senior Chief Petty Officer Daniel R. Healy, 36, Exeter, N.H., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 1st Class Thomas C. Hull, 41, Princeton, Ill., Aug. 2, 2005, Arabian Gulf (non-combat incident)
Electrician’s Mate Fireman Apprentice Michael J. Jakes Jr., 20, Brooklyn, N.Y., Dec. 4, 2001, Arabian Sea
Petty Officer 3rd Class Benjamin Johnson, 21, Rochester, N.Y., Nov. 18, 2001, Persian Gulf
Petty Officer 2nd Class Darrell Jones, 22, Wellston, Ohio, Oct. 8, 2003, United Arab Emirates
Lt. Cmdr. Erik S. Kristensen, 33, San Diego, Calif., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 1st Class Jeffrey A. Lucas, 33, Corbett, Ore., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Lt. Michael M. McGreevy, Jr., 30, Portville, N.Y., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 3rd Class Fabricio Moreno, 26, Brooklyn, N.Y., Oct. 14, 2005, Kenya
Lt. Michael P. Murphy, 29, Patchogue, N.Y., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 1st Class Brian J. Ouellette, 37, Needham, Mass.
Engineman 1st Class Vincent Parker, 38, Preston, Miss., Nov. 18, 2001, Persian Gulf
Petty Officer 2nd Class Eric S. Patton, 22, Boulder City, Nev., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Ensign Jerry O. Pope II, Tallahassee, Fla., Oct. 17, 2002, Yemen
Petty Officer 3rd Class Jason Profitt, 23, Charlestown, Ind., March 17, 2003, Red Sea.
Petty Officer 1st Class Thomas E. Retzer, 30, San Diego, Calif., June 25, 2003, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 1st Class Neil C. Roberts, 32, Woodland, Calif., March 4, 2002, Afghanistan
Lt. Cmdr. Thomas L. Robinson, 38, Kingston, Mass., Oct. 23, 2002, Bahrain
Petty Officer 2nd Class James Suh, 28, Deerfield Beach, Fla., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Cmdr Adrian B. Szwec, 43, Chicago, Ill., April 12, 2004
Petty Officer 1st Class David M. Tapper, 32, Camden County, N.J., Aug. 22, 2003, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 1st Class Jeffrey S. Taylor, 30, Midway, W.Va., June 28, 2005, Afghanistan
Petty Officer 3rd Class Emory J. Turpin, 23, of Dahlonega, Ga., Nov. 20, 2005, Seychelles

what if i stumble and can't make it. my only worry is failing, failing is not an option. i can't wait! i need the disipline and i need this to make me into a full woman. you know growing up i never had disipline. i can't wait to see the world and do things that many people only dream of doing in thier lifetime.
even though i have fucked up in the past and made some mistakes, i can't regret them or ignore them but learn from them. take them head on right? I know that i'll be back in a few years but for some reason i feel like im saying good bye forever, i don't know, my mind is going crazy im sure everyone that joined the service felt this way before they left. i'll be fine and i'll succeed!

I guess i am really excited about leaving. i admit at first i was really scared but now i see that everyone i love, care about or even know will be fine without me. life is about living it to your own potential. me leaving will start new changes for everyone. changes that may need to happen. i know some people don't want to see me go but believe me, when i am gone we will both grow from the experience. My absence may be a blessing in disguise for some. besides, its not like im going away forever and i will be back, if i hate it, at the age of 25. that's still young!!!!!
I met a boy, yes johnny. i have to say i really like him. we get along so well. he makes me laugh :)
Although randomly, thoughts of shae pop up in my mind sometimes.
well 2morrow i have my pt test. 18 push ups, 45 sit ups and 1.5 mile in 15 min. wish me luck!
support our troops!!! we're fighting to keep your ass alive!

ahh these people are crazy! and then i rrealize they are just like me

i'd be lying if i said i wasnt scared.
Somtimes i wonder if i made a huge mistake.
Getting out now isnt an option.
Dont get me wrong i really want to do it and i am so proud of myself.
I guess i never really thought about death.
A lot of things are going though my mind right now.

well today was moving day. mum is now moved in. i need to start dieting and exercising. i have been doing push-up and up to 4. thats good for 1 week. although i am still fat.

current weight: 135
Height: 5'3
What i ate 2day so far:
6 oz yogurt-key lime pie
1 serving of cheez-its
1 serving of bbq chips
1 snickers bar
1 serving of chicken noodle soup
crackers
1 glass of fruit punch

up to 20 pushups so far.

My recruiter upped my leave date to 2-07-06.

I joined the navy! I leave Feb. 14 2006. I joined as a machinist mate with 70% sea time. I will be stationed in chicago. I put in a request for Master of arms. I feel really proud of myself. The only hard part is getting into shape. Feb. will be here in no time.
Last night i went down to West Virginia to that Hanted prison. Everyone gave it good reviews but, i can't say it was great. My expectations were much greater than i experienced. The actors sucked. Fright Nights is way better :) After that we went to wheeling where we drank and lost money on the slot machines. We got hungry and went to eat n park. I must have overate cause i fell asleep on the way home. We all came back to my place and walked to a small corner bar on sarah and 15th. I think it was an underage bar cause ppl looked very young. o well, after that i drove rj home, came back an passed out. So tonight i have work and i hope its very busy. I need money so i can inspect my car. Actually money has been alright.

Hey fuckers! So my recruiter callls me yesterday and is like "I Can't get you into the navy until you finish this semester." All because i was stupid and dropped out of high school. STAY IN SCHOOL, it will only hurt your future! So anywho I'm bummed but hey what can you do. In this case I may not sign up for DEP. I don't know we will see how the story continues. Anywho, I think I have bigger fish to fry. Yesterday I went out shopping with my mother and she bought a picture,(It doesn't match anything in my apartment) and hangs it up in my living room, sigh, I suppose this means she moved in for good? I do like my privacy and well, i just don't have it. I think she is sleeping over my other sisters house tonight. That is good 'cept shes taking my car! I can't even go out if i wanted to! Live and learn, maybe i'll just join the marines...

Im not sure if i put this in here before but my boss quit. For 3 weeks now his son had been running the bar. that is good news for me cause my boss was an asshole. bob barker lookin motherfucker! Anywho tomorrow i go to Meps and hopefully finish the process. Of course i'll post fri or sat on my status. If i pass this shit im getting wasted on friday cause i deserve it. Im going shopping tonight for underwear, not that i don't have nice ones its just that the doc and other recruits will see me in them. the only thing i don't like is that there will be a woman watching me piss in a cup. Ahhkk!!! wierd! haha, maybe i should ask her to hold it for me, hahahaha, i suppose i wont increase my boobs, who knows...

woo hoo!!!!
I passed er, aced! the asvab today!!! ya i go fri for the physical part, after that im in. Navy, here I come!!!

Hmph, well i talked to my recruiter today. 1 week @ 2pm i take the ASVAB test. hopefully this time i won't be late. I am nervous. I have been studying like crazy and i honestly think im ready. I am anxious, yet patient. I know i won't pass the physical training for at least another a month. i have to admit i havent been working out as much as i should. ive only been doing 2 times a week. plus i have been eating fast food. oh well i am in no rush cause i still have to get this damn root canal and hopefully my surgery before i leave. i only have to wait a month after surgery before i can do hard physical activity. I should know in less than 2 weeks the date. i hope soon if not i have to wait until the spring semester starts. oh well its close to 12 and i have work in the morning.
sis i'll scan the pics 2morrow.